Monday, November 14, 2011

Don't give up.

Don't let your character change color with your environment. Find out who you are and let it stay its true color.
Ever feel like you don't know who you are yet?
Ever feel like you can't be your true self?
Ever taken life for granted and wish you never did?
How did you change it?
Who are you?
What has made you who you truly are?
I often ask myself these questions all the time and some of them I still have no idea... I don't think I have really figured out who I am yet... all I know is that I am a daughter of God!
People often ask me for advice and help with trials they are going through and I give them advice but I wonder why I can't give the same advice to myself. I'm always look up to someone to give me the things I need to hear. After Sunday school today I really thought of why I am here and why I need to keep living righteously.
To finish my course I MUST: Trust god with & through everything, language, keep eyes heavenward, focus on my Savior, live the words of the prophets. 
I can't wait to keep living life to the fullest and to keep finding new things to improve and work on. I love my Savior with all my heart! 
I can't wait to keep discovering new friendships and talents. I hope we all can not be scared to share our talents. Reach out to those who need help discovering theirs and learn from it.  
I have a friend who is helping me through so many things in life right now where I have days where I just can't keep doing it. I cant keep trying hard all day everyday but he always says don't give up! so every day that I am feeling the courage to give up and I know that I don't want to keep pushing myself his word keep coming into my mind, "Don't give up!". If you are doing something that you don't think you can achieve of be then I challenge you to tell yourself don't give up!! I think about the future of if I did give up and I think about where I would be if I had given up... I wouldn't be where I am today.  
Be a friend to everyone. No matter if they are different then you, less athletic then you, skinnier or heavier than you, different skin color, different family situations or whatever it may be that makes you different don't be scared to be different! Different is amazing! It's good to be different. Being different means you don't blend in with the crowd you know that your special in some way. Keep trying to make new friends. When ever I hear at school how one girl can't be friends with another girl is because she's not rich like her, she doesnt have a boy friend, she doesnt have the same clothes, she doesnt have sex, she doesn't smoke. Well this goes out to every girl who gets hurt because their not one of those. Im very proud of you if you don't have sex and smoke!! that just means your not throwing your life away for something less. If you don't have the right kind of clothes that doesnt matter. Just keep smiling and have courage to be yourself and different. If your not rich like the other girl who cares. Money doesn't buy happiness. What buys happiness is being happy for what you have and not being selfish. These are the types of girs who I look up to very much. Those who can stick up for their standards even if they are being judges and accused. Keep staying strong. Keep having faith. Keep your eyes heavenword and think of in the end it will all be worth it. Find friend who will support you and stick up for what you believe. If you have fiends that judge you because your not like them then obviousy their not right for you. 
I know a lot of people who are judged because they don't have sex, they don't do drugs. But to all of those of you who judge someone because they don't do that, maybe you should be looking at yourself and thinking if what your doing is right. Those who have courage to stick up for themselves they know where that will take them and they say no even though they are persecuted and hated. I'm sorry if this all sounds rude and stuff but I see this way to much with some of my friends and it hurts more than anything to see someone get persecuted because they stood up for their standards. It takes me back to when Joseph Smith was wanting to find the right church and when he did he got so much crap and to think of people still doing it I can't help but feel pain for those who are hated for their belief.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

I live, I love, I laugh, I cry. Im not perfect. No one is, not you or I.

This week I have learned a lot. I learned why most girls can't let go of a guy in their life... Partly because they were there for them through the hardest times and they can't let go of that and move on. I learned that about myself. Yes it is hard to move on but I have also learned that high school isn't for being stuck with one person. Most likely that guy won't be the one you marry.. I have also learned a great deal about the atonement in my life. Being forgiven isn't always easy but if you just do the hard steps first everything after that is easy. I am so grateful for my savior Jesus Christ and for all that he did for me!! Next is I am thankful to know that families are forever. When my grandma passed away a few weeks ago I had a hard time with it and as soon as I thought families are forever as long as everyone does their part and tries to be better. I'm glad I can be with my family forever and I know I was put in this family for a reason. If I didn't have them my life would be soooo boring!!!! (: This year has been one of the best and hardest years of my life so far! A lot of things have changed me for the best! I have made SO many new friends that are amazing and influence me to do the best. I have a lot of hard classes this year to prepare me for MATC and internships for next year. Thinking and re searching about colleges and scholarships. I've had to learn to forget about some people and move on with my life.It's funny how a lot of people just walk in your life when they want and just leave when they feel like it."Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game" this quote has stuck with me ever since I was little when I watched A Cinderella Story. No matter what is hard in life whether it be crappy friends who don't treat you right, or a guy who disrespects you or a friend holding a grudge. Move on if they don't treat you right then they shouldn't be in your life. I'm so grateful for my sisters & sister in law because they just tell me what I need to hear flat out. They tell me straight up if I need to let go of a friend or a guy. I love all those who don't beat around the bush about advice. I wish I could be like a lot of amazing girls in this world. Keep smiling no matter who or what is holding you back from love or dreams. Follow your heart. Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart. Once I followed my heart and it literally CRUSHED me. But.... then I realized I was following my head. Really listen to your heart. Don't be afraid of what your heart is telling you. If you love someone and your heart tells  you it is right then GO FOR IT. Don't listen to anyone who tells you that they aren't right for you. Don't listen to those who tell you, you have no idea what your doing. Trust me I regret that a lot!!  There is one more thing that I can't stress enough. Girls... please just be yourself. If a guy can't take you for who you are as a daughter of God and someone who believes in standards and keeping them high then don't take that guy. Give him up. Be yourself. Don't lower your standards for someone who doesn't care enough to help you raise them! I did that and let me tell you it was hard but I did it and after I knew in my heart that what I did was right. Please don't believe someone if they tell you that what you did was wrong. 
       That was my thoughts for the past little while. kind of depressing but hey at least im writing on here (:

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Tested to the limit.

We all are created by god, and we all matter to him. No one is a nobody. Satan try's to make us not feel important. We all are special and unique. We all have a unique purpose of why we are here. All of our trials are for a purpose, we all have different strengths and weaknesses that need to be tested. we are given trials to make us stronger they are not always easy but they are for our benefit. If we endure these trials we are promised we will be blessed and strengthened. -- my notes today in young womens.
I know lots of us lately has had our faith tested and our standards tested. I know that I have had my standards and faith tested. In the past month I have struggled a lot with what I know is right and what I know is wrong. People have tried to tare me down and lower my standards and at times I have just wanted to so they could leave me alone but my  heart was telling me what was right and I had to follow it and I did and now I feel like a nobody. I feel as if I should just do what the world is doing, but I can't. I could just never could. People tell me they are proud of me for doing what's right but why am I feeling so unhappy and not happy with the right choice I made. A LOT of people in this world don't care what they do but people are really always watching. I have seriously just been so down lately because I did what was right but yet I don't feel anything. I don't feel proud of myself like I should but today I learned I need to be courageous in every right choice I make.
Don't ever lower your standards for anyone. If that's what they want of you they are NOT worth it. A good person will help you raise your standards to help you become better and not worse. I know that I have these trials to help me be stronger and I know I am a unique individual. I have a purpose here on earth. Keep friends who really care about you and try to help you. Take the time to look around to see who is worth keeping around. I have done that lately and I know they are people who really care about my future and want to help me through almost everything. wow... there is so much on my mind that I don't think any of this makes sense but here are more thoughts. 
Have you ever just wanted to jump in a car and just leave and get out alone? haha I have wanted to do that all week!! just leave town and get out. Do what you want to do and go where you want to go with no one to tell you which way. I do have to thank a friend that I  have... He is always willing to help me and he is ALWAYS proud of the good choices I make in life. He's the one that I can talk to for 2  hours on the phone about anything. He's the one that is there when I cry he knows what I'm feeling. He's what you call a REAL best friend!! I know that he will definitely be in my future!  No matter what mistake I make he doesn't care. He looks at you the same and doesn't think of you any less. I have kinda been in denial of that lately because I really didn't think he cared about me but until that friend was gone for a while and I didn't have him to call when I wanted to give up on everything I knew what he would say if I called him. I  have such amazing people in my life. I have a hero. He is on his mission. That's my brother. He's been gone for 5 months and I have NO IDEA how I have made it his long with out his advice and support. He has just become district leader and no letter came this week. I have been kind of down and I have had no one to share my feelings with but I got down on my knees and just asked my heavenly father if I could just talk and just tell my father in heaven everything that has been going on. I truly felt he was listening. I knew he felt what I was going through. All my hopes, dreams, fears, frustrations. If you don't have anyone to talk to just get on your knees and talk to your heavenly father. He is your best friend. He does care. He loves you and will NEVER let you down!!
   Well that's my in site for like the past week. ENJOY!